I have often thought about updating my blog but then I never do. So obviously a ton has changed in the last 9 months....
I'm finally a senior in college... only took 6 years lol. I'm hoping to graduate 12/12/12 which is my 25th birthday but I am trying not to think about it so I don't flip out because there's still a lot that has to happen between now and then.
I'm still living in Kennesaw but in a regular apartment now. I love my apartment!! I live with Cheryl and Quart, so I'm happy I still get to live with Cheryl. It's different living with a couple vs all girls. But I'm very happy for Cheryl, she's found an amazing guy and she deserves it!!
It's funny because I came to kennesaw kicking and screaming and now I find myself very sad that I only have about 8 months left before I move. I don't love Kennesaw the way I did Auburn but I have adjusted to living here and I will certainly miss it when I'm gone. Who would've thought I'd grow to like this place? lol I am so thankful for my time here and so thankful for how everything turned out. I met a few lifelong friends and I have a whole new perspective on life. I have no doubt my time in Kennesaw was suppose to be part of my journey.
Everything in life is constantly changing. It's rough getting older. No body tells you how much your 20's can suck. It's an amazing journey and I know the outcome will be so worth all the pain but dang the 20's are rough. It's full of changes, struggles, trying to find yourself, finding a balance, figuring out your life, adjusting to a career, watching your friends get married, wondering when you'll find your special person, friends having babies (I'm certainly no where near ready for kids!)... it's just a lot of life shaping experiences. I'm at the point now where I'm watching all my friends get married. I know I'm no where near ready to get married and I have a lot of single life left to live. But you can't help but wonder when your time will be. I miss girls nights, they seem to be so rare these days. Everyone is dating someone else and it's hard to have girl time. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy for all of my friends getting married, I just miss girl time. I miss college nights.... study groups, late night food runs, adventures, spontaneous trips, meeting friends, having "parties" and game nights. It's funny cuz I miss my college days but yet I'm sill in college. I just miss the college experience. I feel like an adult trapped in college! Haha!
I have a very amazing life despite all the struggles. I'm so thankful for my family and friends. I wouldn't make it without them. The changes just make me sad but I know its apart of life. Life will always change....
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Sooo much has changed...
Wow, so I haven't updated in a little over 2 months and SOOOOOOOOO much has happened since then.....
So I finished up the worst emotional semester ever! I was so thankful to be done and so proud of myself for making it through. I felt that I had come a long way and had established myself in Kennesaw somewhat.
Then I went home for Christmas break and totally relapsed!! I went into hardcore depression! But I got on some medication and I finally accepted the fact that I was depressed, it is going to hurt, I'm going to have to be sad for a little while, and that was OKAY! I think allowing myself to be "down" or feel "defeated" is really hard for me. But I did make it through the break. It was a very weird break... I didn't want to buy gifts, I didn't care about Christmas, I hardly saw anyone, I just spent a lot of time alone and trying to help myself get better.
Then I came back to Kennesaw and had a week off of school because of that crazy snow storm! Which ended up being the best thing for me because it allowed me to focus on school and start getting ready for the semester.
So then the semester started... I'm taking 18 hours and still recovering from depression. I think I've done fairly well so far! Things aren't completely back to normal... a few things from my past have come back and are causing difficulty. But with the help of my awesome friends, I am getting through. I have finally established myself in Kennesaw and I'm loving that! It only took me a 1 year and a half! haha! But I have made awesome friends here. Things are still constantly changing, life is still hard and confusing, emotions still get the best of me somedays... but I'm making it!S
So I finished up the worst emotional semester ever! I was so thankful to be done and so proud of myself for making it through. I felt that I had come a long way and had established myself in Kennesaw somewhat.
Then I went home for Christmas break and totally relapsed!! I went into hardcore depression! But I got on some medication and I finally accepted the fact that I was depressed, it is going to hurt, I'm going to have to be sad for a little while, and that was OKAY! I think allowing myself to be "down" or feel "defeated" is really hard for me. But I did make it through the break. It was a very weird break... I didn't want to buy gifts, I didn't care about Christmas, I hardly saw anyone, I just spent a lot of time alone and trying to help myself get better.
Then I came back to Kennesaw and had a week off of school because of that crazy snow storm! Which ended up being the best thing for me because it allowed me to focus on school and start getting ready for the semester.
So then the semester started... I'm taking 18 hours and still recovering from depression. I think I've done fairly well so far! Things aren't completely back to normal... a few things from my past have come back and are causing difficulty. But with the help of my awesome friends, I am getting through. I have finally established myself in Kennesaw and I'm loving that! It only took me a 1 year and a half! haha! But I have made awesome friends here. Things are still constantly changing, life is still hard and confusing, emotions still get the best of me somedays... but I'm making it!S
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