Thankful Change

Well I haven't posted in 5 months and a lot has changed!! Last semester was HORRIBLE, there was just so much going on, I was unhappy, adjusting, overwhelmed with school, and my emotions- Ahh! But Christmas break I worked on changing my attitude towards Kennesaw to have a fresh start in January. Well at the start of this semester I could already see a huge difference. My emotions were more stable, which makes a huge difference. My classes weren't as challenging and my overall attitude towards Kennesaw was so much more positive and hopeful. I also had a good mentor who encouraged me to let Kennesaw affect my life like I did in Auburn.
Looking back at the way this year has unfolded it's so obvious to me that God certainly had a plan for me coming here. I just couldn't see it last semester because I didn't want too. I didn't understand why God was moving me during my friends senior year in Auburn but really I have still gotten to be apart of all the important things and I think it actually worked out better than it would've if I still lived there. Also, there were sooooo many ups and down and change of plans with my senior friends and their futures just in the last 6 months that it has made me thankful that I was already located and stable. Relationships have changed since the move and I think at first that was one thing that really made me bitter. But life is going to happen and things are going to change regardless of how much you might not want it too and it's something that I am having to learn to accept.
One of the biggest lessons I've had to learn was through people. The relationships I made in Auburn meant so much to me and truly changed my life, so much in fact that I had the naive idea that not much would change when I left. I was so wrong to think that and it took a while for me to accept that the people who had meant so much to me in Auburn had moved on without me. It's not that they necessarily don't care, but its college and things are constantly changing from year to year and if you're not there you get left behind, its just the way it works. Also, no matter how amazing you think someone might be... they're still human! I thought that because the relationships I made were with some really good Christian people that it'd be different.... but it wasn't that much different. In fact, the sad part is I've come to realize that even though the people I met in Auburn were amazing, they're actually the people who have been the most judgmental towards me. It's a sad but true statement... Christians are some of the most judgmental people I've ever met. Now before everyone has a duck over that statement... I'm not saying all Christians are judgmental and I'm not saying I haven't been judgmental as well. But because I've noticed this I try hard to let people just be who they want to be. Nothing bothers me more than other people trying to tell people how they should live their life's.
There's been a lot of changes this past year and there's going to be a lot more. I can tell too that I've transformed into more of who I was before I moved to Auburn except an older and wise version of that person... it's like I'm a mix of who I was and who I became in Auburn. But I can honestly say that I am thankful to be where I am right now. This transition is teaching me a lot about life and people and is growing me as a person. And it is really true that GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!