A whole lot of BLAAAH!!!

So I am way way waaaaay behind on posting considering I was suppose to post about 2 months ago! So much has been going on in my head! It's been a really rough couple months with looots of changes. I honestly don't know even where to begin!
Kennesaw is interesting. I like the school SO much better than the city that surrounds the school. Although I haven't figured out if I like the school yet or not, I just know I like it more than the city considering I hate the city! lol It's like a bigger Snellville. Like they took a college and randomly placed it somewhere. There's no real "college" life here. I feel like I'm in a horrible 3 year transition from college to big girl life. No body understands at all how I'm feeling. Most of the time I feel like no one really cares. Smoke Rise people have of course been really supportive just like always. But I've really only had 1 friend thats been by my side through this process and we've become so super close. I really am soooo thankful for that. But I am really disappointed and hurt by my other friends I thought I was close too. That has prob been the shocker. All these amazing friends I thought I had haven't been around at all. It's really hurt me and bothered me for a while. But I had to let it go and now I'm "use" to it in a way. I do love being so close to home which is oddly funny considering I didn't even like going home when I lived in Auburn. I decided that was because when I was in Auburn it was SO much better than home and now that I'm in Kennesaw, home is SO much better than Kennesaw. So I actually really look forward to going home. And for the first time in 3 years I am counting down the seconds til I can be home for Christmas break! lol Anyway, I hate to be Debbie Downer but this is the only place I feel I can express myself. No one cares enough to listen and if they do ask I don't think they really want to hear me talk about how I don't like it here. But then part of me thinks am I determined not to like it here? I don't know. I do know I miss AUBURN like crazy, not really the people at all, just the city! I actually kinda like not dealing with the "drama" even though I do still hear about it. But I do miss Auburn as a whole so I guess the people part comes in there somewhere! lol For a while I was having a hard time being back in GA cuz I felt I wasn't accomplishing anything by being back in a state I've already lived in. But then I sorta had the thought that maybe this will be my last few years year and God brought me back so I can enjoy it. I take for granted that my DAd lives here and it's had to think of him living anywhere else but its def an option for the future. Anyway, I know this post is very jumbled. It's sorta a mix of a lot of things I've been thinking for the past few months. I'll try to get better at updating it and then perhaps things might seem more positive and not so jumbled and random!! lol