I MISS AUBURN LIKE CRAAAAAAZYYYYYY BAD!!!!!!!
I will post an update tomorrow after my first day of classes. It'll for sure be a long post though. In a nutshell, I don't know what to think about Kennesaw. But I do know that I didn't have this difficult of a time adjusting to Auburn as I have here. :(
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
What I've learned...
Well during my first month of being a freshman in Auburn my dad emailed me something one of the youth had emailed him at the end of her college years. It was a long letter about what all she had learned by being off at school. Ever since I read that I wanted to be able to write a letter like that at the end of my time in Auburn, so here's what I got...
** this is still under construction!
What I have learned....
Life will ALWAYS change-esp when you're most comfortable and content, You can learn the most from those who are different from you, not everyone is going to like you or agree with you and that is okay, struggles in life really do make you stronger and you eventually get to a point where you're thankful for the pain because it got you to where you are in life, if you are hoping for a red light so you can do something really quickly you will only get green lights, locking your keys in your car gets expensive, your car getting towed is really expensive, everyone will let you down at some point and the higher your expectations for someone usually the bigger the disappointment, technology messes up at the most inconvenient times, life isn't fair and life can be rough, you learn the most and grow the most during the most difficult times in life, forgetting to use an edited version of a rap song at a BCM dance is not a good idea, life is full of awkward situations and creepers, there is no proper way to handle life you just have to do what works best for you, living your life doing things for others generally makes you happy person, most traits that people have can be used for the good or the bad, after the age of 20 your body goes through extreme physical changes and the gym is a must, random roommates can cause for some interesting experiences, books are soo expensive & they're always going to come out with a new edition before you're able to sell yours back,
What I have learned about myself...
First and for most I have learned I am so much like my mom which is sometimes good and sometimes not so great, I am a very very passionate person and would do anything for those I care about most, although being passionate isn't always the best and can cause me to get upset easily because I care too much sometimes, I have become OCD and like for things to be clean and organized, I love to be creative and decorate, i love to hear the people who don't agree or have the same opinions as me so i can understand why they think the way they do, I am the most introverted but yet extroverted person you'll ever meet, but I am very all or nothing, I can't be rude to people I don't know, I will only call my closest friends out on things bcuz i care most about them, I have a huge desire to have a mother figure back in my life and I really want to marry into a family oriented family with traditions, I will usually only attack if I feel attacked first- it's very rare that I will just randomly start something, I really do hate confrontation but at the same time I don't just let things go without talking them out first,. I love to study the way a person works and try to figure out why they might do certain things, I really do care about my education and being successful, despite my losses in life I am very very blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life, I can't figure out if I'm more of a night owl or a morning person- I think I did work better at night but its slowly changing to where I can get more done in the morning, I love to travel and wish I have the money and time to do more of that, I have a huge love for old people- they're just so cute and sweet and you can learn a lot from them, I am vulnerable and have a huge heart but i like to put on a big front, I love helping people with issues and I love it even more when they listen haha!, it bothers me when people don't know me but think that they do, i am very productive when i have a lot to do but will waste time doing nothing if i don't have much to do, I really dunno what Im looking for in a spouse or what type of personality will work best with mine but I'm trusting God to pick him out for me, I stand firm behind what I believe, I don't have a good filter on what you should and shouldn't say in certain situations, I don't think before I speak,
What I will miss.....
The pride is saying I live in Auburn, living in a sweet friendly little town, the lack of traffic compared to ATL, having everything within 10 miles of you, the orange and blue fire trucks-police cars- and ambulances, driving or walking around campus and downtown AU, knowing that if you ever want to be around people you can always go to BCM and there is always at least some one there,Tues night BCM worship, Thursday burger nights at niffers, my 20 min drive to school and short walk, studying on a beautiful spring day at Keisel, knowing my way around town, Walmart being conveniently down the road, late night sonic runs, BCM people and events, ABC nights, random nightly adventures, late night Waffle House runs, being able to stop by and see Bethy at the dorm whenever Im on campus, meeting friends for lunch or coffee. the awkwardness, living in the same town as Neisler, having all my college frieds in the same town, football game Saturdays, tailgating at Claires, tiger town, taking pictures on campus, being able to make the smallest things fun, the amazing cheap car wash, AU coupons, the millions of AU alerts about tornado although there never are any, how safe i feel in AU, getting to show friends and family around when they come visit, running into the Neisler's at football games, my coffees with Mrs. Renee, Brant's jokes, flag football games, bonfires, Wednesday lunches at bcm, decorating cars, watching the campers line up 3 days before a football game, random pics on campus, awkward welcome week, TV show nights, random get togethers, Chelwalka, Random roadtrips, Flag football games, tiger Nights, Square Dancin, A-days, study breaks, birthday dinners, blasting disney music downtown, Bonfires, laying out at the night quiet pool, toomers lemonade, Aubie, Toomers Corner, Samford, movie nights, dinner parites, sleepovers, senior nights, & Auburn!
What I won't miss...
AL ROACHES!!!, Getting towed, & Parking Tickets
** this is still under construction!
What I have learned....
Life will ALWAYS change-esp when you're most comfortable and content, You can learn the most from those who are different from you, not everyone is going to like you or agree with you and that is okay, struggles in life really do make you stronger and you eventually get to a point where you're thankful for the pain because it got you to where you are in life, if you are hoping for a red light so you can do something really quickly you will only get green lights, locking your keys in your car gets expensive, your car getting towed is really expensive, everyone will let you down at some point and the higher your expectations for someone usually the bigger the disappointment, technology messes up at the most inconvenient times, life isn't fair and life can be rough, you learn the most and grow the most during the most difficult times in life, forgetting to use an edited version of a rap song at a BCM dance is not a good idea, life is full of awkward situations and creepers, there is no proper way to handle life you just have to do what works best for you, living your life doing things for others generally makes you happy person, most traits that people have can be used for the good or the bad, after the age of 20 your body goes through extreme physical changes and the gym is a must, random roommates can cause for some interesting experiences, books are soo expensive & they're always going to come out with a new edition before you're able to sell yours back,
What I have learned about myself...
First and for most I have learned I am so much like my mom which is sometimes good and sometimes not so great, I am a very very passionate person and would do anything for those I care about most, although being passionate isn't always the best and can cause me to get upset easily because I care too much sometimes, I have become OCD and like for things to be clean and organized, I love to be creative and decorate, i love to hear the people who don't agree or have the same opinions as me so i can understand why they think the way they do, I am the most introverted but yet extroverted person you'll ever meet, but I am very all or nothing, I can't be rude to people I don't know, I will only call my closest friends out on things bcuz i care most about them, I have a huge desire to have a mother figure back in my life and I really want to marry into a family oriented family with traditions, I will usually only attack if I feel attacked first- it's very rare that I will just randomly start something, I really do hate confrontation but at the same time I don't just let things go without talking them out first,. I love to study the way a person works and try to figure out why they might do certain things, I really do care about my education and being successful, despite my losses in life I am very very blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life, I can't figure out if I'm more of a night owl or a morning person- I think I did work better at night but its slowly changing to where I can get more done in the morning, I love to travel and wish I have the money and time to do more of that, I have a huge love for old people- they're just so cute and sweet and you can learn a lot from them, I am vulnerable and have a huge heart but i like to put on a big front, I love helping people with issues and I love it even more when they listen haha!, it bothers me when people don't know me but think that they do, i am very productive when i have a lot to do but will waste time doing nothing if i don't have much to do, I really dunno what Im looking for in a spouse or what type of personality will work best with mine but I'm trusting God to pick him out for me, I stand firm behind what I believe, I don't have a good filter on what you should and shouldn't say in certain situations, I don't think before I speak,
What I will miss.....
The pride is saying I live in Auburn, living in a sweet friendly little town, the lack of traffic compared to ATL, having everything within 10 miles of you, the orange and blue fire trucks-police cars- and ambulances, driving or walking around campus and downtown AU, knowing that if you ever want to be around people you can always go to BCM and there is always at least some one there,Tues night BCM worship, Thursday burger nights at niffers, my 20 min drive to school and short walk, studying on a beautiful spring day at Keisel, knowing my way around town, Walmart being conveniently down the road, late night sonic runs, BCM people and events, ABC nights, random nightly adventures, late night Waffle House runs, being able to stop by and see Bethy at the dorm whenever Im on campus, meeting friends for lunch or coffee. the awkwardness, living in the same town as Neisler, having all my college frieds in the same town, football game Saturdays, tailgating at Claires, tiger town, taking pictures on campus, being able to make the smallest things fun, the amazing cheap car wash, AU coupons, the millions of AU alerts about tornado although there never are any, how safe i feel in AU, getting to show friends and family around when they come visit, running into the Neisler's at football games, my coffees with Mrs. Renee, Brant's jokes, flag football games, bonfires, Wednesday lunches at bcm, decorating cars, watching the campers line up 3 days before a football game, random pics on campus, awkward welcome week, TV show nights, random get togethers, Chelwalka, Random roadtrips, Flag football games, tiger Nights, Square Dancin, A-days, study breaks, birthday dinners, blasting disney music downtown, Bonfires, laying out at the night quiet pool, toomers lemonade, Aubie, Toomers Corner, Samford, movie nights, dinner parites, sleepovers, senior nights, & Auburn!
What I won't miss...
AL ROACHES!!!, Getting towed, & Parking Tickets
On my own...
Okay, I know I need to update this before too much time goes by. I'm home, been here for about 5/6 days. I'm doing alright. At first was the hardest, I think it was the fear of what was to come. I was very bitter and angry during the moving process. Nothing really hit me until the morning of about an hour before I left. My dad wasn't making anything easier by being snappy about things.
Once I got home though and throughout the day I became more bitter because I didn't hear from anyone in Auburn. It just sorta frustrated me that they knew that day was rough for me and yet I didn't hear from anyone. But whatever...
I honestly am a lil surprised by some people. I had such amazing friends in Auburn, I am shocked that I haven't heard from them. I'm use to this stuff from my friends at home but not in Auburn. If I talk to anyone in any way all I get is "It'll be alright, God has great plans, I know things are rough but make the best of it" by Sunday I wanted to SCREAM if I heard any of that anymore. Truth is I know that, but right now I'm hurting and I need people to be there for me. I felt like people saying that (even though I know they meant only good things by it) was their way of coping out by just saying something encouraging and moving on with their life's without having to really be there for me. Right now, I need people there for me and I've really only had that from one person. It's sad and honestly very surprising.
But that's okay, I'm really making the best of it. And if I'm being completely honest I don't want to go back to Auburn for a while or be around Auburn people. I feel like I'm doing really well just the way I am and to go down there or see people would only push back my progress some. Plus with not really hearing from anyone, I've sorta detached myself from people. But it is surprising to me at the slim amount I've heard from people. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt my feelings. But I've found the best way to handle it is to just detach myself from them.
Looking back though, I've realized a pattern in just how well people in Auburn do move on when someone leaves. It's not though that I expect life to stop or people to be upset. I just simply would like for the friends I thought I had to be there for me during a rough time. But instead I feel like they've already moved on and forgot about me. Thats really my only complaint. As far as I go I'm doing well being alone for now. I've sorta enjoyed the time to myself... its a nice change. Things are def starting to pick up a tad though and I think they will the closer I get to move in.
Oh yea, thats another thing. I keep forgetting that I'm moving to KSU. I am just now starting to adjust to home and then I'll have to move again. My life is going to be full of changes in the next few months and it looks like I'm really on my own!
Once I got home though and throughout the day I became more bitter because I didn't hear from anyone in Auburn. It just sorta frustrated me that they knew that day was rough for me and yet I didn't hear from anyone. But whatever...
I honestly am a lil surprised by some people. I had such amazing friends in Auburn, I am shocked that I haven't heard from them. I'm use to this stuff from my friends at home but not in Auburn. If I talk to anyone in any way all I get is "It'll be alright, God has great plans, I know things are rough but make the best of it" by Sunday I wanted to SCREAM if I heard any of that anymore. Truth is I know that, but right now I'm hurting and I need people to be there for me. I felt like people saying that (even though I know they meant only good things by it) was their way of coping out by just saying something encouraging and moving on with their life's without having to really be there for me. Right now, I need people there for me and I've really only had that from one person. It's sad and honestly very surprising.
But that's okay, I'm really making the best of it. And if I'm being completely honest I don't want to go back to Auburn for a while or be around Auburn people. I feel like I'm doing really well just the way I am and to go down there or see people would only push back my progress some. Plus with not really hearing from anyone, I've sorta detached myself from people. But it is surprising to me at the slim amount I've heard from people. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt my feelings. But I've found the best way to handle it is to just detach myself from them.
Looking back though, I've realized a pattern in just how well people in Auburn do move on when someone leaves. It's not though that I expect life to stop or people to be upset. I just simply would like for the friends I thought I had to be there for me during a rough time. But instead I feel like they've already moved on and forgot about me. Thats really my only complaint. As far as I go I'm doing well being alone for now. I've sorta enjoyed the time to myself... its a nice change. Things are def starting to pick up a tad though and I think they will the closer I get to move in.
Oh yea, thats another thing. I keep forgetting that I'm moving to KSU. I am just now starting to adjust to home and then I'll have to move again. My life is going to be full of changes in the next few months and it looks like I'm really on my own!
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