Ok to start I'm exhausted so there's no telling how all this will come out...
My last day was work was today. I wish I would've enjoyed it more I was just so tired. But it was a good day and I'm definatly going to miss hanging out with Joshus & Tucker! They are very sweet and well mannered kids and so much fun!! I'm sure it'll hit me more in a week or so when I haven't hung out with them. They're so cute they both made me cards and Tucker drew me a picture. And Kellie gave me some gift cards and a really sweet note! They're a wonderful family and I'm so glad I had the oppertunity to spend time with them this summer!
I move back in a week!!!! I am SOO EXCITED!! But as bad as this sounds I'm realllly hoping that things stay good when I get there. Usually when I am dreading something it turns out great and when I'm excited about something it turns out not so great. So I hope my excitment doesn't turn into disappointment! (Like it did last year when I moved back!!!) I had mixed feelings for a while but I think I'm passed that. There are still a couple things that might effect me later but for now I'm excited! That might be because I can't seem to "see" pasted moving in and the few couple weeks which will be setting up the apartment, seeing my grents, and some visits from Marshal. Once school and activites kick in that might change a bit. I'm still a little nervous about welcome week because of last years drama. And I'm interested to see how it's going ot play out without Marshal in Auburn. But liek I said right now I'm suuuper excited! I just can't wait to start living in Auburn again! I just hope I can adjust and handle all the changes well this year!
Well thats where I stand for now! It's crunch time and I have a week to get everything doen and packed up! This has been a pretty good summer. Nice, relaxing, and drama free. It was a bit boring but I think it was about time for some "boredom" in my life. I'm still not exactly sure what my reason for being home was. I have some ideas but not for sure yet. I might not ever know but thats ok. I'm glad I was here but now it's time to get back to my new home!!! :o)
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Summer is basically over...
Well the summer is almost over!! This has been the longest and shortest summer ever! It feels like forever ago since I've left Auburn... but at the same time it's flown by! It's so weird that I'm bout to be living in Auburn again. I'm not so sure I'm ready to be back and face all the changes that will take place. I have grown content at home and it'll be a little bit of an adjustment leaving and trying to figure out what Auburn's going to have in store for me this year because I know it'll be very different from last year. Weather it's a good different or a no so good different only time will tell. But I have very mixed feelings about going back.
This has been a very uneventful summer! I use to think that something bad always had to happen to me and that life wouldn't just leave me alone... well it has this summer and its been pretty boring. There's been no drama no awkwardness...it's been weird! haha!
I'm still not exactly sure what my purpose for being home this summer was. I am sure time will tell. But I do know I was suppsoe to be here.
Part of me is ready to be back and part of me isnt. But ready or not it's going to happen! So all I can do is hope for maybe even a better year than last year. It'll be hard to top but I bet it's possible. Im a little skeptical though. When I was in high school I had a rough freshman year adjusting, then a great 10th grade year, then a HORRIBLE junior year because I started the year finding out my mom was diagnosed with cancer. I know that can't happen now...but it still worries me becuase all I've ever know was a bad junior year. I know that's sorta dumb to go by but when it's all I've known it's hard not to wonder.
Anyway, I've survived the summer. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Infact it was alot better. Some relationships have grown stronger, some drifted. But I was sooo worried bout the summer and what it held because I thought nothing could be better than the relationships I had last year. But I am happy to say my relationships are even better now than in Auburn and stronger! So hopefully only good things are too come!! :o)
This has been a very uneventful summer! I use to think that something bad always had to happen to me and that life wouldn't just leave me alone... well it has this summer and its been pretty boring. There's been no drama no awkwardness...it's been weird! haha!
I'm still not exactly sure what my purpose for being home this summer was. I am sure time will tell. But I do know I was suppsoe to be here.
Part of me is ready to be back and part of me isnt. But ready or not it's going to happen! So all I can do is hope for maybe even a better year than last year. It'll be hard to top but I bet it's possible. Im a little skeptical though. When I was in high school I had a rough freshman year adjusting, then a great 10th grade year, then a HORRIBLE junior year because I started the year finding out my mom was diagnosed with cancer. I know that can't happen now...but it still worries me becuase all I've ever know was a bad junior year. I know that's sorta dumb to go by but when it's all I've known it's hard not to wonder.
Anyway, I've survived the summer. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Infact it was alot better. Some relationships have grown stronger, some drifted. But I was sooo worried bout the summer and what it held because I thought nothing could be better than the relationships I had last year. But I am happy to say my relationships are even better now than in Auburn and stronger! So hopefully only good things are too come!! :o)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
4 weeks til Auburn...
Ok this post has to be quick because I really need to get to bed! Basically everything is crazy and stressful now. I realized last weekend I have only 4 weeks left at home and a millions things to still get for my apartment. So I have everything mapped on the calendar now.
I don't feel like I accomplished all that I wanted to this summer. I feel like my goal was to "survive" and I have. But I dont think I've really grown or learned anything this summer. I haven't even seen or really catch up with anyone from home. I'm going ot wake up in a couple years without friends. I never answer my phone or return phone calls and I hate talking on the phone. I rather send a text or facebook message. Really Im not sure why anyone still bothers to keep up with me, I wouldn't by now.
I seriously just try to get from day to day and then my weekends are too packed to enjoy. I know there's a reason I am home this summer so maybe when it's all said and done I'll feel like I've accomplished more with my life.
Im moving my stuff into stroage in Auburn on Friday. I'm excited about being down there. BUT I do know moving completly out of my very first Auburn apartment (of 2 years) is going ot be tough. Im glad Im leaving there though. There were many good (and bad) memories there and it's been fun but Im ready for a more solid place with a more solid (and normal) roommate. Also, living there without my neighbor Marshal across the street would make it more obvious and harder that he's not there anymore.
I have very mixed feelings about moving back for my 3rd year. Im trying to get the feelings mostly positive. Its not like its that hard when you live in the most wonderful place ever. But there's a ton of changes that are about to take place and I'm not a big fan of change. This could very well be my last year in Auburn. A lot of that will be determind on how the year goes. Im sure it'll turn out to be a great year, just probably a rough beginning.
So thats basically all thats going on. I still have some "me" issues I need to work on and hopefully I';ll gain something from being at home this summer!
I don't feel like I accomplished all that I wanted to this summer. I feel like my goal was to "survive" and I have. But I dont think I've really grown or learned anything this summer. I haven't even seen or really catch up with anyone from home. I'm going ot wake up in a couple years without friends. I never answer my phone or return phone calls and I hate talking on the phone. I rather send a text or facebook message. Really Im not sure why anyone still bothers to keep up with me, I wouldn't by now.
I seriously just try to get from day to day and then my weekends are too packed to enjoy. I know there's a reason I am home this summer so maybe when it's all said and done I'll feel like I've accomplished more with my life.
Im moving my stuff into stroage in Auburn on Friday. I'm excited about being down there. BUT I do know moving completly out of my very first Auburn apartment (of 2 years) is going ot be tough. Im glad Im leaving there though. There were many good (and bad) memories there and it's been fun but Im ready for a more solid place with a more solid (and normal) roommate. Also, living there without my neighbor Marshal across the street would make it more obvious and harder that he's not there anymore.
I have very mixed feelings about moving back for my 3rd year. Im trying to get the feelings mostly positive. Its not like its that hard when you live in the most wonderful place ever. But there's a ton of changes that are about to take place and I'm not a big fan of change. This could very well be my last year in Auburn. A lot of that will be determind on how the year goes. Im sure it'll turn out to be a great year, just probably a rough beginning.
So thats basically all thats going on. I still have some "me" issues I need to work on and hopefully I';ll gain something from being at home this summer!
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